1 00:02:25,440 --> 00:02:29,331 Hi, grandma. It's Jenny. How are you? 2 00:02:31,200 --> 00:02:33,486 The weather's so beautiful. 3 00:02:35,200 --> 00:02:40,092 Yes, they just took the last of the furniture. It looks so empty. 4 00:02:41,560 --> 00:02:45,610 No, dinner's impossible. I must be at the clinic first. 5 00:02:48,120 --> 00:02:53,934 Yes, I'll be there at eight. Give grandpa my love. 6 00:03:40,160 --> 00:03:44,688 I think you'd feel a lot better if you got up and washed and dressed. 7 00:03:50,400 --> 00:03:55,406 In any case we should open the curtains. It's quite warm in here. 8 00:04:21,440 --> 00:04:24,216 Last time I saw you we had a good talk. 9 00:04:28,840 --> 00:04:30,535 What's happened now? 10 00:04:49,880 --> 00:04:52,371 You know that I know you're putting on an act. 11 00:04:56,600 --> 00:04:58,295 What good is that? 12 00:05:13,360 --> 00:05:15,089 Forehead... 13 00:05:21,960 --> 00:05:23,530 Cheek... 14 00:05:30,520 --> 00:05:32,135 Eye... 15 00:05:39,640 --> 00:05:41,528 Mouth... 16 00:05:46,560 --> 00:05:48,448 You mustn't. 17 00:06:05,200 --> 00:06:07,771 Poor Jenny. 18 00:06:13,200 --> 00:06:15,816 Poor Jenny. 19 00:06:22,920 --> 00:06:25,571 Poor Jenny... 20 00:08:14,680 --> 00:08:16,648 - Jenny! - Grandma! 21 00:08:16,960 --> 00:08:18,086 Come in. 22 00:08:18,640 --> 00:08:23,407 - Lovely! If you knew how happy I am... - Lovely, I know. 23 00:08:24,320 --> 00:08:28,654 - Grandpa and I looked forward to this. - Where is grandpa? 24 00:08:33,160 --> 00:08:35,572 Grandpa, how are you? 25 00:08:40,160 --> 00:08:45,496 Here I am and I'm staying for two months. Eric is in Chicago at a congress. 26 00:08:46,000 --> 00:08:50,767 We just talked on the telephone. He says there'll be so much to tell you when he's home again. 27 00:08:51,320 --> 00:08:55,177 Come along now and I'll show you to your room. I'll put you 28 00:08:55,600 --> 00:09:01,448 in your old room. It's quiet, you won't be disturbed at all. There's no noise from the street in the summer. 29 00:09:02,200 --> 00:09:06,250 - Oh grandma, you didn't have to... - You know the furniture you had as a girl? 30 00:09:07,120 --> 00:09:11,887 It's been brought down for you. Do you recognize it? 31 00:09:12,400 --> 00:09:15,255 And your old desk... 32 00:09:15,720 --> 00:09:21,886 You must tell me if there's anything you need. Grandpa and I have so looked 33 00:09:22,440 --> 00:09:26,126 - forward to you coming. - So have I. 34 00:09:28,320 --> 00:09:32,336 We'd better go and have some tea with grandpa. 35 00:09:32,640 --> 00:09:36,326 He gets so impatient if he has to wait. 36 00:09:41,720 --> 00:09:43,733 Can you help grandpa? 37 00:09:46,360 --> 00:09:48,373 And how's my little Anna? 38 00:09:49,280 --> 00:09:52,340 Anna's gone off to riding camp. She's in love 39 00:09:52,680 --> 00:09:58,573 with a three year older boy, who's been telling her all about the world revolution. 40 00:09:59,280 --> 00:10:04,172 - Is he also at riding camp? - Anna is 14 years old 41 00:10:04,600 --> 00:10:08,013 - and can take care of herself. - Sugar in your tea? 42 00:10:08,360 --> 00:10:10,214 Yes, please. Three lumps. 43 00:10:12,360 --> 00:10:16,694 Oh grandma, you've made scones. And I've been considering a diet... 44 00:10:17,080 --> 00:10:19,048 That's nonsense. 45 00:10:22,440 --> 00:10:26,410 Well, after riding camp, Anna will be staying with a friend. 46 00:10:27,040 --> 00:10:30,806 And she won't be home until school begins. 47 00:10:31,480 --> 00:10:35,337 - And when will the new house be ready? - In August, I hope. 48 00:10:35,960 --> 00:10:39,532 The construction man has promised, but you never know. 49 00:10:40,080 --> 00:10:44,096 - And you work at the hospital all summer? - Yes. 50 00:10:44,800 --> 00:10:47,894 Does that mean you'll have no time to rest? 51 00:10:48,480 --> 00:10:52,416 Eric and I thought about going to Italy in October, but we'll see. 52 00:10:52,880 --> 00:10:57,852 - What sort of substitute is it? - I'm filling in as senior physician. 53 00:10:59,640 --> 00:11:04,213 - I hope you're well paid. - Thank you grandma, I'm very well paid. 54 00:11:04,680 --> 00:11:06,568 Are you happy at work? 55 00:11:07,440 --> 00:11:11,490 I'm happy wherever I am. 56 00:11:20,200 --> 00:11:24,728 - How is it? - With me? Just fine. 57 00:11:27,400 --> 00:11:31,530 - Something wrong between you and Eric? - Not at all! 58 00:11:33,280 --> 00:11:37,614 - Well, something's wrong. - I'm just a little tired. 59 00:11:38,320 --> 00:11:43,326 I haven't recovered from the flu I had in spring. I must take vitamins. 60 00:11:45,240 --> 00:11:48,607 Let's go and say goodnight to grandpa. 61 00:11:55,640 --> 00:11:59,736 Grandpa loves to look at these old pictures. 62 00:12:01,120 --> 00:12:03,486 He looks at them for hours. 63 00:12:05,040 --> 00:12:08,294 That could be the summer of 1948. 64 00:12:09,920 --> 00:12:13,572 It must be, because Greta has a big belly 65 00:12:13,960 --> 00:12:17,691 and Ragnar was born in September. 66 00:12:18,680 --> 00:12:21,092 There were so many of us. 67 00:12:22,800 --> 00:12:27,772 And that damned boat that always broke down when we needed it. 68 00:12:28,280 --> 00:12:30,726 How I hated that boat. 69 00:12:32,080 --> 00:12:36,335 - You were daddy's little girl. - There were reasons for it. 70 00:12:37,760 --> 00:12:40,308 Goodnight. Sleep well. 71 00:12:43,440 --> 00:12:48,776 Don't look at the pictures too long or your eyes will start to hurt. 72 00:15:40,320 --> 00:15:44,654 20 years ago I realised the unfathomable brutality in our methods 73 00:15:45,040 --> 00:15:50,455 and the total meltdown of psychoanalysis. I don't think we can cure one person. 74 00:15:50,880 --> 00:15:53,849 One or two will be cured despite our efforts. 75 00:15:54,680 --> 00:15:58,047 I think you'll get to keep Maria for a while, if you don't mind it. 76 00:15:58,480 --> 00:16:01,574 You're the boss. At least for now. 77 00:16:02,360 --> 00:16:05,773 I'm going. I'm having lunch with the interior minister, 78 00:16:06,080 --> 00:16:10,574 an incurably normal neurotic. 79 00:16:12,000 --> 00:16:13,206 Goodbye. 80 00:16:13,600 --> 00:16:19,288 And leave Maria to me when you've had it. Ideally before Erneman comes back from Australia. 81 00:16:19,920 --> 00:16:25,131 He's understood that this is a factory where ends must meet and likes the lunatics to be rotated. 82 00:16:25,880 --> 00:16:30,453 That's why the politicians love him so much and let him travel around the world, spreading the gospel. 83 00:16:32,840 --> 00:16:36,571 By the way, are you coming to my wife's party? 84 00:16:37,160 --> 00:16:40,732 - Are you? - No. She's revealing her new lover. 85 00:16:41,240 --> 00:16:42,969 Young Mr. Str�mberg. 86 00:16:43,320 --> 00:16:45,493 - The actor? - The very same. 87 00:16:46,400 --> 00:16:51,690 He is exactly 26 years younger than my wife. It's all very touching. 88 00:16:52,960 --> 00:16:55,975 - I mean it, without irony. - Isn't Str�mberg... 89 00:16:56,320 --> 00:17:00,006 Yes, but Elisabeth loves his friends too. She's like a mother to them. 90 00:17:02,600 --> 00:17:04,090 I think I'm going. 91 00:17:04,600 --> 00:17:09,936 Tell her that my prognosis for young Mr. Str�mberg is bad and that I, 92 00:17:10,280 --> 00:17:11,326 despite everything, love her. 93 00:17:15,480 --> 00:17:20,611 Dear Jenny! Are you showing up already! 94 00:17:20,840 --> 00:17:24,776 - I thought it was at five? - No, it was at two. 95 00:17:25,160 --> 00:17:27,811 Almost everyone has left. 96 00:17:28,480 --> 00:17:31,688 Come in. It's so good to see you! 97 00:17:32,880 --> 00:17:39,456 What a nice costume you have. Let me see... it's completely wonderful. 98 00:17:40,240 --> 00:17:44,609 You are so beautiful. Ah, to be looking like that! 99 00:17:45,360 --> 00:17:50,730 How lovely to see you. Come in. 100 00:17:51,600 --> 00:17:56,048 Where's your husband? Oh, right, he's in America. 101 00:17:57,360 --> 00:17:59,089 This is Michael. 102 00:18:00,760 --> 00:18:05,368 I'm very much in love with him. Actually. 103 00:18:06,800 --> 00:18:09,451 He's so good to me. 104 00:18:11,160 --> 00:18:17,087 And this is his best friend, Ludvig. 105 00:18:19,160 --> 00:18:23,335 We're going to Bahamas, the three of us. 106 00:18:23,680 --> 00:18:27,696 And this is Tomas. I'm sure you've heard about him. 107 00:18:28,080 --> 00:18:31,811 He travels to developing countries, teaching girls to use contraceptives. 108 00:18:32,440 --> 00:18:36,615 And he's the cutest doctor in the world if you have heart problems, 109 00:18:37,040 --> 00:18:40,806 if you know what I mean... 110 00:18:41,560 --> 00:18:43,414 And this... 111 00:18:44,880 --> 00:18:49,726 Who is this? Michael, do you remember who this is? 112 00:18:50,400 --> 00:18:55,133 Let's not bother him. He's taken a little nap and he deserves it 113 00:18:55,680 --> 00:19:00,788 after telling us all off a while ago. My, what a 114 00:19:01,120 --> 00:19:05,773 speech that was. And this is a pair of sweet girls. 115 00:19:06,200 --> 00:19:11,092 And capable. They've opened a little store at the corner. 116 00:19:11,480 --> 00:19:17,134 I think we should offer the boys some strawberries. 117 00:19:17,600 --> 00:19:22,936 Aren't they fantastic, with their transparent dresses. 118 00:19:25,720 --> 00:19:29,008 Imagine us in those clothes... 119 00:19:29,560 --> 00:19:32,529 Imagine that. 120 00:19:34,960 --> 00:19:36,928 Are you happy now? 121 00:19:44,520 --> 00:19:48,411 I'm only telling this to you, because you understand. 122 00:19:49,120 --> 00:19:52,089 - Of course there are problems. - Really? 123 00:19:53,320 --> 00:19:55,766 - Cheers! - Cheers. 124 00:19:57,640 --> 00:20:05,172 Michael is very complicated. I almost get scared of him sometimes. 125 00:20:07,280 --> 00:20:11,376 And Ludvig is a bad seed. 126 00:20:12,480 --> 00:20:19,409 But generally, you could say that I am somewhat happy. 127 00:20:22,400 --> 00:20:24,413 Are you alright, Elisabeth? 128 00:20:26,960 --> 00:20:29,246 I'm grateful. 129 00:20:31,480 --> 00:20:38,932 Humbly grateful. Not only because of Michael. 130 00:20:40,520 --> 00:20:43,853 But because I have myself safe and sound. 131 00:20:45,840 --> 00:20:54,327 And because I know that it's my feelings. There is no distance between... 132 00:20:59,520 --> 00:21:03,650 Never mind, I'm drivelling. 133 00:21:04,360 --> 00:21:06,487 I almost envy you. 134 00:21:06,920 --> 00:21:09,536 We have to leave. We're going to the countryside. 135 00:21:09,880 --> 00:21:12,940 Sorry that you have to go now, but thank you for coming. 136 00:21:13,200 --> 00:21:15,213 Oh, it was lovely. 137 00:21:19,440 --> 00:21:23,456 - How are you? - Fine, how are you? 138 00:21:24,200 --> 00:21:25,849 Always fine. 139 00:21:27,240 --> 00:21:30,209 - What do we talk about now? - We have an... 140 00:21:32,840 --> 00:21:34,614 Sorry. 141 00:21:36,920 --> 00:21:39,855 -... an excellent topic. - Really? 142 00:21:40,120 --> 00:21:44,568 - A patient who happens to be my half-sister. - Oh, Maria. 143 00:21:45,280 --> 00:21:46,406 Exactly. 144 00:21:47,840 --> 00:21:51,856 It feels inappropriate to talk about a patient in this environment. 145 00:21:52,200 --> 00:21:55,215 - It's not necessary. - How do you mean? 146 00:21:56,640 --> 00:21:59,848 We could have dinner together. 147 00:22:00,560 --> 00:22:03,893 There's a great fish restaurant nearby. 148 00:22:05,840 --> 00:22:09,367 - I... - Of course. We can do it another time. 149 00:22:09,760 --> 00:22:13,332 I'm in town until the end of August. 150 00:22:23,800 --> 00:22:28,248 Shouldn't we go to the restaurant? I'm just going to make a call. 151 00:22:28,840 --> 00:22:31,536 If the offer stands, of course. 152 00:23:16,360 --> 00:23:21,366 Hi, Martin. Thank God I got ahold of you. I can't see you tonight. 153 00:23:22,200 --> 00:23:24,452 What? Yes, a patient. 154 00:23:26,680 --> 00:23:31,447 Have I met someone who is funnier? You're so silly. 155 00:23:32,680 --> 00:23:38,653 There's no point in having jealousy between us. 156 00:23:41,280 --> 00:23:42,975 Goodbye. 157 00:23:45,320 --> 00:23:46,252 Oh, lord! 158 00:24:02,280 --> 00:24:05,807 Shall we, or do you cling to your impulse of escaping? 159 00:24:07,840 --> 00:24:11,207 - They serve an excellent sole. - I'm quite hungry. 160 00:24:11,760 --> 00:24:15,776 Let's eat then, and see what happens next. Is that fine? 161 00:24:32,800 --> 00:24:35,894 The house is crumbling. 162 00:24:36,800 --> 00:24:40,486 Sometimes I consider getting something more modern. 163 00:24:41,240 --> 00:24:45,006 When there was a woman in the house, the garden was nice but now it's... 164 00:24:46,080 --> 00:24:49,015 - What would you like to drink? - I'm fine. 165 00:24:49,560 --> 00:24:51,812 - How are you? - How are you? 166 00:24:52,280 --> 00:24:56,410 - I'm fine. As always, I must say. - Congratulations. 167 00:24:57,080 --> 00:25:01,050 - Coffee? - Maybe later. Do you play? 168 00:25:02,560 --> 00:25:05,051 - No, my wife did. - Is she dead? 169 00:25:05,800 --> 00:25:10,055 - We divorced a couple of years ago. - Was it as successful as everything else? 170 00:25:10,400 --> 00:25:12,971 The divorce was the most successful thing we did. 171 00:25:14,280 --> 00:25:19,900 - Imagine that my husband is gone for three months. - I know, you hinted at it during dinner. 172 00:25:20,520 --> 00:25:23,455 - I actually miss him. - Of course. 173 00:25:24,360 --> 00:25:28,126 I've got myself a lover who isn't half as nice. Can you understand that? 174 00:25:28,600 --> 00:25:34,334 Sort of. What other cures do you have for your anxiety? 175 00:25:35,360 --> 00:25:37,851 We're moving to a new house this autumn. 176 00:25:38,200 --> 00:25:41,010 - How nice. - Are you bored? 177 00:25:42,040 --> 00:25:46,852 Not at all. I'm just wondering if your breasts aren't tremendously beautiful. 178 00:25:48,160 --> 00:25:51,607 To still your curiosity, I can tell you that they are very beautiful. 179 00:25:52,080 --> 00:25:56,130 - You'll have to do with that explanation. - You misread me, but that's fine. 180 00:25:56,440 --> 00:25:58,488 - A cigarette? - I don't smoke. 181 00:25:58,800 --> 00:26:00,256 Wise. 182 00:26:01,360 --> 00:26:05,456 Anyway, I'm going home. Will you call for a taxi? 183 00:26:05,920 --> 00:26:07,808 Wait a moment. 184 00:26:09,160 --> 00:26:12,414 - I'm very tired. - Just listen for a moment. 185 00:26:14,040 --> 00:26:15,166 Go on. 186 00:26:17,080 --> 00:26:22,086 Can't we be friends? Don't look so ironic, I mean it. 187 00:26:24,560 --> 00:26:26,494 Are you listening? 188 00:26:27,920 --> 00:26:29,330 Sure. 189 00:26:34,520 --> 00:26:38,889 I just want to know how you've imagined us getting from here to your bedroom. 190 00:26:41,240 --> 00:26:46,894 How you've figured out overwinning the awkwardness of getting undressed. 191 00:26:49,520 --> 00:26:55,288 What amazing techniques you'll use to satisfy me, and yourself. 192 00:26:58,200 --> 00:27:02,296 What demands you place on my performance. 193 00:27:04,440 --> 00:27:12,051 How advanced and impulsive you allow me to be. 194 00:27:13,120 --> 00:27:17,454 - You're very funny. - Too bad, because I'm serious. 195 00:27:19,840 --> 00:27:24,948 I also want to know how you've envisioned the termination of the sex. 196 00:27:26,560 --> 00:27:29,108 Tenderly and quietly? 197 00:27:31,360 --> 00:27:34,090 A cigarette glowing in the morning light? 198 00:27:34,600 --> 00:27:39,287 Nervous talk about the next time and exchanging of phone numbers? 199 00:27:40,680 --> 00:27:45,970 - I can at least drive you home. - No thanks. I'll take a taxi. 200 00:28:06,320 --> 00:28:09,687 A taxi for S�derhamnsv�gen 9, please. 201 00:28:14,520 --> 00:28:15,930 Thank you. 202 00:28:17,320 --> 00:28:18,617 Goodbye then, Jenny. 203 00:28:19,040 --> 00:28:22,532 Thank you for a pleasant afternoon. Hope we'll meet again. 204 00:28:24,760 --> 00:28:29,254 - Maybe we could go to the movies. - Or a concert. 205 00:28:30,480 --> 00:28:31,890 That would be nice. 206 00:28:32,760 --> 00:28:36,173 - I'll call you. - Maybe I'll call you. 207 00:28:36,680 --> 00:28:39,934 - That would surprise me. - Maybe I'll call just because of that. 208 00:28:43,360 --> 00:28:45,567 - It's so light. - It's almost two o'clock. 209 00:30:44,800 --> 00:30:48,486 - Are you running around again? - The clock. 210 00:30:49,240 --> 00:30:54,416 - We wound it up properly last night. - It stops. 211 00:30:55,320 --> 00:30:57,766 - It doesn't. - It's lagging. 212 00:30:58,200 --> 00:31:00,816 It's just like all the other clocks. 213 00:31:01,240 --> 00:31:06,610 But if you keep fooling with it, I'm sure it will break. 214 00:31:15,040 --> 00:31:19,534 I'm not placing you in a nursing home. 215 00:31:20,280 --> 00:31:23,772 It's all in your head, do you hear me? 216 00:31:31,680 --> 00:31:34,228 Old age is hell. 217 00:31:54,200 --> 00:32:00,207 There, there. You always have me. I'm always by your side. 218 00:32:01,960 --> 00:32:06,613 - Don't be so nervous. - I'm sorry. 219 00:32:07,800 --> 00:32:10,894 Come and lie in my bed. 220 00:32:11,680 --> 00:32:15,650 Then you'll sleep better and feel calm. 221 00:32:16,400 --> 00:32:19,813 Then I'll just snore. 222 00:32:20,400 --> 00:32:24,086 I've already slept enough. 223 00:32:26,280 --> 00:32:27,850 Come now. 224 00:32:28,880 --> 00:32:31,007 We'll have it comfortable. 225 00:32:32,000 --> 00:32:35,572 - Where are my slippers? - What slippers? 226 00:32:35,920 --> 00:32:39,447 - The other ones. - They're in the closet. 227 00:32:40,320 --> 00:32:43,812 - No, I looked there. - Yes, my dear, I put them there. 228 00:32:44,200 --> 00:32:45,656 You never find anything. 229 00:32:46,800 --> 00:32:51,851 - Don't be so stubborn. They're not there. - I know that they are there. 230 00:33:02,560 --> 00:33:03,936 Who is it? 231 00:34:58,040 --> 00:34:59,655 Who are you calling? 232 00:34:59,960 --> 00:35:02,611 I must get Maria to the hospital. 233 00:35:02,840 --> 00:35:04,376 - Is it such a hurry? - She's unconscious. 234 00:35:04,640 --> 00:35:07,768 Are you sure that we drugged her? 235 00:35:08,120 --> 00:35:10,975 - In any case she must get to the hospital. - Wait a minute. 236 00:35:12,320 --> 00:35:14,413 No need for an ambulance. 237 00:35:16,480 --> 00:35:19,176 Don't be afraid. I won't do anything. 238 00:35:20,360 --> 00:35:26,651 I have a proposition: you get out of here immediately, then I'll take Maria with me. 239 00:35:27,920 --> 00:35:30,889 - Listen to me. - I'm not interested. 240 00:35:31,280 --> 00:35:37,367 Whether you want to know or not, the situation is this: 241 00:35:38,320 --> 00:35:41,733 Maria called us yesterday and wanted to go out, so we picked her up. 242 00:35:42,200 --> 00:35:47,092 At night she got ill and started yelling for you and that we must take her to you. 243 00:35:47,520 --> 00:35:50,774 We looked you up in the phone book and drove her here. 244 00:35:51,120 --> 00:35:55,693 Nobody opened, so we crawled in through the cellar window. 245 00:35:56,160 --> 00:36:00,927 When we saw it was all empty, we called the hospital and got 246 00:36:01,200 --> 00:36:03,373 your current number. 247 00:36:46,680 --> 00:36:49,092 She's too tight. 248 00:37:15,000 --> 00:37:18,492 Some have to pay for a fuck, did you know that? 249 00:37:25,800 --> 00:37:28,086 Call the fucking ambulance. 250 00:38:01,800 --> 00:38:06,294 This is Dr. Isaksson at the psychiatric clinic. 251 00:38:06,720 --> 00:38:12,932 I'd like an ambulance for Dennav�gen 35. Yes, right away. 252 00:40:22,280 --> 00:40:25,772 - Let's not talk too much this evening. - It's completely up to you. 253 00:40:26,360 --> 00:40:29,488 - You don't understand. - No, not really. 254 00:40:30,080 --> 00:40:33,413 There are certain moments in life you just have to get through. 255 00:40:34,320 --> 00:40:38,336 - So? - Certain hours, minutes. 256 00:40:39,400 --> 00:40:41,766 - Is it like that now? - Maybe. 257 00:40:42,800 --> 00:40:47,089 - Anyway, I am grateful that we're together. - You need a drink. 258 00:40:49,680 --> 00:40:55,300 - Our last time was ridiculous. Don't you think? - I never think it's ridiculous. 259 00:40:57,320 --> 00:41:00,380 - Do you have sleeping pills? - Of course. Want one? 260 00:41:01,400 --> 00:41:07,327 Most of all I'd like you to give me a double dose of those sleeping pills. 261 00:41:08,040 --> 00:41:11,487 - Maybe I'll sleep twice as well. - And then? 262 00:41:12,280 --> 00:41:17,252 Then I'd like to sleep here in your bed, without making love. 263 00:41:18,880 --> 00:41:22,054 You'd hold my hand if needed... 264 00:41:25,840 --> 00:41:27,933 Can you do that? 265 00:41:50,680 --> 00:41:54,252 Don't drink if you'll take the sleeping pills. 266 00:41:57,520 --> 00:42:01,729 0,5 mg Valium and two Mogadons. A good combination. 267 00:42:02,200 --> 00:42:05,374 I use it myself without after- effects. 268 00:42:05,760 --> 00:42:08,695 Drink strong coffee in the morning. 269 00:42:13,720 --> 00:42:16,780 - When do you want to be woken? - Just before 7. 270 00:42:17,400 --> 00:42:20,369 I must be at the hospital by 8:30. 271 00:42:21,680 --> 00:42:23,887 - Come. - Tomas... 272 00:42:27,240 --> 00:42:33,930 If you force things to be as usual, they'll be as usual. Don't you think? 273 00:42:36,720 --> 00:42:38,335 That's how it is for me. 274 00:43:16,560 --> 00:43:19,973 Something very peculiar happened to me. 275 00:43:25,400 --> 00:43:29,006 When I came to pick Maria up the other day 276 00:43:29,800 --> 00:43:35,568 there were two men in the house. One of them tried to rape me. 277 00:43:41,280 --> 00:43:47,094 At first I got scared, then I thought it was silly. 278 00:43:51,040 --> 00:43:52,689 Then... 279 00:43:55,040 --> 00:43:56,371 Then? 280 00:43:59,320 --> 00:44:04,246 He had his face pushed against my breast. 281 00:44:08,240 --> 00:44:14,975 He was red in the face and tried to enter me. 282 00:44:22,400 --> 00:44:29,966 And suddenly, I wanted him so badly to make it. 283 00:44:32,360 --> 00:44:35,170 Is that so strange? 284 00:44:36,560 --> 00:44:45,207 No. What was strange was that even though I wanted, he couldn't get inside me. 285 00:44:51,320 --> 00:44:56,292 Everything was shut... 286 00:44:59,440 --> 00:45:01,135 and dry. 287 00:45:35,320 --> 00:45:36,776 I'm sorry. 288 00:45:38,120 --> 00:45:39,894 I don't know... 289 00:45:54,640 --> 00:45:56,016 Sit up. 290 00:45:57,560 --> 00:45:59,175 Try... 291 00:46:04,200 --> 00:46:09,854 - I don't understand. - Breathe slowly. Take a deep breath. 292 00:46:52,320 --> 00:46:54,732 There, there. 293 00:47:04,360 --> 00:47:06,772 I don'twant to! 294 00:47:33,600 --> 00:47:40,369 I want to go home. You're getting me a taxi. I don't want you to drive me home. 295 00:48:10,120 --> 00:48:11,735 There, there. 296 00:48:14,640 --> 00:48:18,406 Should I call the doctor? 297 00:48:20,320 --> 00:48:24,290 There are doctors here already... 298 00:48:29,440 --> 00:48:33,376 I'm just tired. I want to go home. 299 00:48:35,880 --> 00:48:41,295 There's nothing wrong with me. I want to go home and go to bed. 300 00:48:55,880 --> 00:48:57,529 How are you now? 301 00:48:58,840 --> 00:49:00,376 Better. 302 00:49:03,520 --> 00:49:06,296 Say what you want. I'm driving you home. 303 00:50:13,800 --> 00:50:16,655 - Sorry for being so stupid. - You should rest. 304 00:50:17,000 --> 00:50:20,288 Tomorrow I'll feel great. Then I'm free 305 00:50:20,720 --> 00:50:22,972 for two days. 306 00:50:23,680 --> 00:50:26,649 Next time we'll talk only about you. 307 00:50:51,240 --> 00:50:55,973 You slept all day yesterday. 308 00:50:56,880 --> 00:50:58,450 - I started to worry. - What day is it? 309 00:50:58,840 --> 00:51:03,254 It's Saturday, 9 am. I called the hospital and told them 310 00:51:04,000 --> 00:51:07,572 - that you were ill. - God, I've slept an entire day. 311 00:51:08,080 --> 00:51:10,446 I've made you some breakfast. 312 00:51:11,440 --> 00:51:13,169 Thank you. 313 00:51:14,200 --> 00:51:17,852 You should drink some coffee and eat a sandwich. 314 00:51:23,680 --> 00:51:30,609 Unfortunately I can't stay home with you. Grandpa and I are invited to the Egermans. 315 00:51:31,040 --> 00:51:34,646 I can't call it off. 316 00:51:35,040 --> 00:51:40,171 Grandpa is so happy to go to the countryside 317 00:51:40,640 --> 00:51:43,848 - for a couple of days. - I can take care of myself. 318 00:51:44,600 --> 00:51:45,976 Are you sure? 319 00:52:24,480 --> 00:52:26,846 It must be Sunday... 320 00:52:43,880 --> 00:52:47,008 I should get up and eat. 321 00:52:52,680 --> 00:52:54,887 It feels strange. 322 00:53:01,760 --> 00:53:04,615 At least the anxiety is gone. 323 00:53:16,640 --> 00:53:21,168 One thing at a time. 324 00:53:26,680 --> 00:53:28,648 A bit of food. 325 00:53:34,280 --> 00:53:36,168 A walk. 326 00:53:39,440 --> 00:53:41,408 A book... 327 00:53:44,320 --> 00:53:46,572 maybe a film. 328 00:54:48,760 --> 00:54:51,126 Hi Tomas, it's Jenny. 329 00:54:53,040 --> 00:54:56,453 I just wanted to apologise for last time. 330 00:54:57,560 --> 00:54:59,573 It's great. 331 00:55:00,200 --> 00:55:06,127 I thought you could take me to the movies? What do you think? 332 00:59:45,880 --> 00:59:48,053 I'm not afraid... 333 00:59:51,040 --> 00:59:52,974 not lonely. 334 00:59:57,120 --> 00:59:59,088 Not even sad. 335 01:00:03,520 --> 01:00:06,136 It feels quite nice. 336 01:02:12,440 --> 01:02:15,500 - Who are these people? - Never mind. 337 01:02:16,280 --> 01:02:20,011 Sit down with me so we can read on. 338 01:02:20,800 --> 01:02:23,928 "ln the castle there lived an evil old woman... 339 01:02:25,280 --> 01:02:28,693 and an even more evil old man. 340 01:02:29,800 --> 01:02:34,453 Before the lord of the castle went out into war... " 341 01:02:34,840 --> 01:02:36,808 What's happening? 342 01:02:38,400 --> 01:02:41,494 "They promised to do so... " 343 01:02:42,360 --> 01:02:47,730 - Why am I so afraid? - "When the knight went... " 344 01:02:48,120 --> 01:02:52,170 - It's so hard to breathe. - Grandma? 345 01:02:53,440 --> 01:02:58,286 Why does it smell so bad here? And it's so hot. 346 01:03:02,160 --> 01:03:06,733 - It's so hard to breathe. - Be quiet now. 347 01:03:07,440 --> 01:03:11,456 The temperature is exactly right and it doesn't smell bad. 348 01:03:13,480 --> 01:03:16,688 Old people smell so bad. 349 01:03:19,880 --> 01:03:23,293 Grandma and grandpa smell bad. 350 01:03:27,480 --> 01:03:33,692 Old people are disgusting. They always smell so bad. 351 01:03:36,760 --> 01:03:40,366 They make it hard to breathe. 352 01:03:48,400 --> 01:03:54,134 I hate it when grandma puts her hand on my shoulder and wants me to kiss it. 353 01:03:54,960 --> 01:04:00,614 - I get scared when you read. - Be quiet! 354 01:04:01,560 --> 01:04:04,336 Quiet! 355 01:04:19,720 --> 01:04:22,655 I would advise you not to open the door. 356 01:04:23,760 --> 01:04:29,175 - You're just trying to scare me. - Suit yourself. I've warned you. 357 01:04:30,400 --> 01:04:34,450 - If I open the door, I'll wake up. - You can't wake up. 358 01:04:35,400 --> 01:04:38,767 - If I try hard... - Go on. 359 01:04:47,560 --> 01:04:53,692 There's something that I suddenly remember. My suicide attempt was unsuccessful. 360 01:04:54,600 --> 01:04:57,569 - Not entirely. - What do you mean? 361 01:04:58,720 --> 01:05:02,656 Brain damage due to lack of oxygen. Have you never heard of such fatality? 362 01:05:03,560 --> 01:05:07,132 - Is it that decent? - Yes, dear Jenny. 363 01:05:07,720 --> 01:05:09,608 Exactly that decent. 364 01:05:10,640 --> 01:05:14,326 - Will I always live like this? - Be calm. 365 01:05:15,560 --> 01:05:20,896 At the hospital, they'll keep you alive, awake or unconscious. 366 01:05:23,000 --> 01:05:26,254 - How long? - Until you die, properly. 367 01:05:27,800 --> 01:05:29,290 And it'll take long? 368 01:05:29,600 --> 01:05:33,047 Seconds, minutes, years. What do I know? 369 01:05:34,320 --> 01:05:39,428 - It mustn't be like that. - Yes, Jenny. It must be exactly like that. 370 01:05:50,920 --> 01:05:56,290 - Opening this door makes no difference. - Your logic is impeccable. 371 01:05:57,800 --> 01:06:01,531 - Do you know what's in there? - How would I? 372 01:06:02,680 --> 01:06:05,228 Why did you warn me then? 373 01:06:05,720 --> 01:06:08,848 You become grateful for the horrors you're familiar with. 374 01:06:09,240 --> 01:06:12,494 The unknown horrors are worse. 375 01:06:17,840 --> 01:06:22,368 - I'm opening it anyway. - Do so. You have your free will. 376 01:06:26,280 --> 01:06:28,931 - Are you leaving? - Dear Jenny. 377 01:06:29,600 --> 01:06:35,220 I don't want to get into more trouble than I already have. So if you'll excuse me... 378 01:06:36,000 --> 01:06:37,410 Don't go. 379 01:06:38,600 --> 01:06:43,651 I'm leaving your dream and entering my own. Don't try to make me stay. 380 01:06:44,760 --> 01:06:46,569 Don't go! 381 01:06:59,120 --> 01:07:01,133 Alone... 382 01:07:31,000 --> 01:07:32,570 Grandma... 383 01:07:57,240 --> 01:07:59,686 If only I could wake up. 384 01:08:24,560 --> 01:08:27,051 - Are you cold? - Yes. 385 01:08:30,000 --> 01:08:33,333 - Borrow my scarf. - Thank you. 386 01:08:37,480 --> 01:08:40,972 - You're not afraid any longer? - I don't think so. 387 01:08:50,960 --> 01:08:56,011 I don't want to... I don't want to. 388 01:08:59,400 --> 01:09:01,948 Leave me alone... 389 01:09:08,680 --> 01:09:10,966 My legs aren't there. 390 01:09:14,000 --> 01:09:20,610 Could someone get them over there in the corner and put them back on? 391 01:09:22,400 --> 01:09:23,810 Hello... 392 01:09:35,280 --> 01:09:36,895 Are you here... 393 01:09:38,040 --> 01:09:41,806 You said we'd go to the movies. Remember? 394 01:09:45,320 --> 01:09:49,290 Then you got quiet and hung up. 395 01:09:49,720 --> 01:09:53,895 I didn't know what to think. It seemed strange. 396 01:09:55,000 --> 01:10:00,211 So I called back and nobody answered. I thought you had been robbed or something. 397 01:10:01,200 --> 01:10:07,093 I really didn't know what to think. It was just unpleasant. 398 01:10:11,440 --> 01:10:12,896 Water? 399 01:10:14,240 --> 01:10:15,776 Yes please. 400 01:10:18,760 --> 01:10:20,409 There. 401 01:10:22,320 --> 01:10:23,571 Careful. 402 01:10:31,960 --> 01:10:33,450 I appreciate it. 403 01:10:35,080 --> 01:10:38,527 Finally I got so worried that I came over and rang your doorbell. 404 01:10:38,840 --> 01:10:41,206 I asked the doorman to open. 405 01:10:44,200 --> 01:10:46,407 I'm falling asleep. 406 01:10:53,840 --> 01:10:57,731 - Your patients have been waiting for hours. - Here? 407 01:10:58,480 --> 01:11:02,337 Yes. According to the new contract. Don't you remember? 408 01:11:02,920 --> 01:11:05,696 Oh, right. How awkward. 409 01:11:29,720 --> 01:11:36,455 Help me. They have cut me in the head. They operated on me. 410 01:11:39,160 --> 01:11:46,089 But when they put me together they forgot the daily fright. 411 01:11:48,920 --> 01:11:51,093 Come back next month. 412 01:12:11,640 --> 01:12:13,767 Don't forget your pills. 413 01:12:22,720 --> 01:12:27,453 Anna! What are you doing here? Don't be afraid of me! 414 01:12:55,520 --> 01:12:57,215 It smells awful. 415 01:13:00,360 --> 01:13:04,410 I'm sweaty and dirty. 416 01:13:08,360 --> 01:13:11,887 - Your husband is here. - Not now... 417 01:13:30,840 --> 01:13:34,526 You have a knack for coming with surprises. 418 01:13:40,400 --> 01:13:42,652 I just got off the plane. 419 01:13:45,240 --> 01:13:48,175 - It must be horrible. - Not at all. 420 01:13:50,920 --> 01:13:53,332 - Will you sit down? - Of course. 421 01:14:03,240 --> 01:14:06,653 - I smell so bad. - Please. 422 01:14:13,800 --> 01:14:18,772 Shouldn't you come back tomorrow? After we've got ourselves together. 423 01:14:20,360 --> 01:14:22,567 Sure, but... 424 01:14:25,760 --> 01:14:31,130 I must fly back tomorrow. It's hopeless. I'm being the chairman... 425 01:14:31,520 --> 01:14:33,329 Poor you. 426 01:14:34,200 --> 01:14:35,849 Don't feel sorry for me. 427 01:14:39,360 --> 01:14:41,806 How messed up it is. 428 01:14:44,720 --> 01:14:47,132 I've been very wondering. 429 01:14:49,200 --> 01:14:51,407 I have never... 430 01:14:52,440 --> 01:14:54,852 - Never been so... - Sorry. 431 01:15:03,040 --> 01:15:06,407 - Why did you do it? - Forgive me. 432 01:15:11,400 --> 01:15:12,890 Forgive me... 433 01:15:16,800 --> 01:15:20,088 I know that I have a large part of the blame. 434 01:15:21,440 --> 01:15:27,208 But I don't know what it consists of. I've tried thinking through this... 435 01:15:30,080 --> 01:15:31,695 Another time. 436 01:15:35,560 --> 01:15:41,692 - Can you rest now? - Yes, I can. Don't worry. 437 01:15:46,280 --> 01:15:48,896 What do you want me to tell grandma? 438 01:15:49,240 --> 01:15:52,767 - If she asks... - You can tell the truth. 439 01:15:58,960 --> 01:16:00,131 And Anna? 440 01:16:01,560 --> 01:16:07,180 I want to talk her. Can't you call her at the camp 441 01:16:07,560 --> 01:16:10,449 - and ask how she is? - Of course. 442 01:16:17,880 --> 01:16:19,609 Goodbye then. 443 01:16:21,240 --> 01:16:23,492 We're going to stay in touch. 444 01:16:47,480 --> 01:16:49,254 Take care. 445 01:17:32,360 --> 01:17:34,806 Mom, where are you? 446 01:17:39,600 --> 01:17:42,216 Dad, I'm home. 447 01:17:45,720 --> 01:17:48,336 Why are you hiding? 448 01:17:50,120 --> 01:17:53,772 Come forth. You're just scaring me. 449 01:18:09,720 --> 01:18:12,496 Mom, it's me. 450 01:18:16,120 --> 01:18:17,849 Dad, it's me! 451 01:18:21,240 --> 01:18:23,606 Don't you recognize me? 452 01:18:29,120 --> 01:18:35,537 Dad, I like you so much. You were so kind to me. 453 01:18:38,080 --> 01:18:41,937 It was so strange when you just disappeared. 454 01:18:42,880 --> 01:18:47,488 I saw you when you were dead. You were lying at the mortuary. 455 01:18:49,640 --> 01:18:54,452 Dear mom, don't be so afraid. It's alright. 456 01:18:55,880 --> 01:19:01,091 I'm not nine years old. I'm grown and have taken sleeping pills 457 01:19:01,600 --> 01:19:04,148 but apparently I failed. 458 01:19:17,240 --> 01:19:24,612 Dad? Mom? You can't help that you were always so afraid. 459 01:19:26,880 --> 01:19:30,646 Mom, dear little mom. 460 01:19:32,160 --> 01:19:37,735 Everything would be so real and right and precise. 461 01:19:40,840 --> 01:19:49,134 Dad, you were so fond of hugging and being tender. You were so sad and nervous... 462 01:19:53,800 --> 01:19:58,533 Then we hurt each other without meaning it. 463 01:19:59,080 --> 01:20:06,009 All life, all the days, all the words and all the petty things. 464 01:20:09,720 --> 01:20:12,496 Dad? Mom? 465 01:20:15,800 --> 01:20:22,774 We also had such good times together, no? I was just a child, I didn't understand... 466 01:20:27,440 --> 01:20:34,573 But still, still you shut the door, and I stood there and burned with guilt! 467 01:20:35,200 --> 01:20:39,648 I stood there always at fault and guilty! 468 01:20:55,160 --> 01:20:58,049 Mom! Dad! 469 01:21:16,040 --> 01:21:19,851 Go away and never come back! 470 01:21:21,720 --> 01:21:27,090 I hate you! I hate you so completely! And I never want to see 471 01:21:27,440 --> 01:21:32,616 your frightened eyes and your frightened gestures. 472 01:22:19,480 --> 01:22:20,936 Tomas... 473 01:22:24,360 --> 01:22:29,935 - Why are you looking after me? - I have my reasons. 474 01:22:33,040 --> 01:22:36,771 - By the way, I'm your doctor. - I didn't know that. 475 01:22:37,200 --> 01:22:40,852 - But now you do. - Is there coffee in that thermos? 476 01:22:41,160 --> 01:22:43,606 - Yes. - Can I have some? 477 01:22:44,000 --> 01:22:47,492 No, I think it would make you feel nauseous. 478 01:22:48,000 --> 01:22:50,776 - But you can have lemonade. - No thanks. 479 01:22:51,440 --> 01:22:53,408 You'd better drink. 480 01:22:57,520 --> 01:23:02,173 - How can you manage your job? - I'm on vacation. 481 01:23:04,520 --> 01:23:11,653 With nothing better to do than overlooking a confused suicide attack? 482 01:23:12,360 --> 01:23:16,012 - No. - Tell me a story. 483 01:23:18,720 --> 01:23:24,727 When I was nine, I learned to burp. My older brother educated me. 484 01:23:26,440 --> 01:23:31,446 At dinner, I found it suitable to demonstrate my newly acquired skills 485 01:23:31,920 --> 01:23:36,528 for the family. I found a gap between the meatballs 486 01:23:36,960 --> 01:23:42,068 and the apple tart. There was no success. 487 01:23:44,200 --> 01:23:48,967 I was so nervous that I happened to fart at the same time. 488 01:23:49,480 --> 01:23:53,416 - How sad. - I created some stir, but what a flop. 489 01:23:54,840 --> 01:23:59,015 I was denied the apple tart and the custard and was told to leave the table at once. 490 01:24:00,440 --> 01:24:05,730 - My upbringing was dogmatic. - Tell me more. Something nice. 491 01:24:08,680 --> 01:24:12,411 - I don't know what. - Anything. 492 01:24:14,400 --> 01:24:20,248 Maybe you've read a book or met an interesting person... 493 01:24:20,560 --> 01:24:24,417 Or been to a movie, or on a trip? 494 01:24:26,000 --> 01:24:31,688 - Honestly, nothing's happened to me for a year. - What happened then? 495 01:24:33,760 --> 01:24:37,730 - I was abandoned. - Oh right, you're divorced. 496 01:24:38,480 --> 01:24:43,611 There was no wife in the picture. I was abandoned by my friend. 497 01:24:47,360 --> 01:24:49,408 I Iiked him very much. 498 01:24:50,720 --> 01:24:54,326 That's not true. I loved him. 499 01:24:57,040 --> 01:24:59,656 We had lived together for five years. 500 01:25:00,920 --> 01:25:04,936 You met him at that silly party at Dr. Wankel's wife's. 501 01:25:07,800 --> 01:25:09,848 I suppose you know who I mean? 502 01:25:10,200 --> 01:25:13,055 - The actor, Str�mberg? - That's right. 503 01:25:15,560 --> 01:25:20,975 - Now we're just friends. - Why did you separate? 504 01:25:26,840 --> 01:25:31,846 In our cruel market, the unfaithfulness is total and the competition terrible. 505 01:25:34,760 --> 01:25:37,854 Wankel's wife gave much better terms. 506 01:25:38,160 --> 01:25:42,529 She accepted his new friend and agreed to support them. 507 01:25:43,360 --> 01:25:47,012 - She's wealthy, as you know. - Wasn't he very fond of you? 508 01:25:47,480 --> 01:25:49,129 I think he was. 509 01:25:51,320 --> 01:25:56,132 But he is beautiful, talented and a little spoilt and I suppose he needed something different. 510 01:25:58,240 --> 01:26:02,176 So I was too painful with my feelings and my jealousy. 511 01:26:06,040 --> 01:26:07,655 Sleep a while? 512 01:26:12,280 --> 01:26:17,411 - What time is it? - 01:30. Almost break of dawn. 513 01:27:16,240 --> 01:27:19,971 Mom! Dad! Help! 514 01:29:22,400 --> 01:29:26,894 When I was young, I knew that death frightened me. 515 01:29:30,440 --> 01:29:36,413 It was always present. It surrounded me. 516 01:29:43,200 --> 01:29:46,886 My dog was run over. That was nearly the worst. 517 01:29:51,040 --> 01:29:55,693 Mom and dad died in a car crash. Well, I've already told you. 518 01:29:57,600 --> 01:30:01,092 A cousin died of polio. I was 14. 519 01:30:02,480 --> 01:30:06,416 We had been kissing at the dinner table on a Saturday. 520 01:30:07,120 --> 01:30:09,736 Next Friday, he was dead. 521 01:30:10,480 --> 01:30:14,735 You've always been considered a miracle of mental health. 522 01:30:19,920 --> 01:30:25,131 Before I got married, I lived a long while with a crazy artist. 523 01:30:27,680 --> 01:30:30,649 When he got very upset, he said: 524 01:30:31,400 --> 01:30:36,326 "Your frigidity is so total that it interests me". 525 01:30:37,600 --> 01:30:42,526 I said: "I'm only frigid with you. Everyone else makes me come." 526 01:30:48,240 --> 01:30:51,300 I was at a party not so long ago, 527 01:30:52,240 --> 01:30:56,654 where someone read out a poem about death and love, 528 01:30:57,200 --> 01:31:02,411 and how they sink into each other. And surround each other. 529 01:31:07,560 --> 01:31:11,929 I remember mocking that poem. 530 01:31:15,760 --> 01:31:19,776 - Quite childish, don't you think? - Maybe. 531 01:31:21,280 --> 01:31:26,206 Dad was so kind. He was an alcoholic. 532 01:31:28,080 --> 01:31:33,131 He would always hug me. We had it so good. 533 01:31:34,600 --> 01:31:38,491 Mom passed by and said "That's enough of that mushiness". And grandma said: 534 01:31:39,440 --> 01:31:44,127 "Your dad may be nice, but he's a real lazy bum". 535 01:31:45,120 --> 01:31:50,331 Mom agreed with grandma, they helped despising dad. And got me to join them. 536 01:31:51,400 --> 01:31:57,248 That's how easy it was. Suddenly I was embarrassed when dad kissed and hugged me. 537 01:31:58,240 --> 01:32:04,008 I was so concerned about making grandma satisfied. 538 01:32:08,080 --> 01:32:15,646 Then I had my own child. Anna had a strange scream. 539 01:32:16,720 --> 01:32:20,975 It was different from the other kids. She didn't scream out of anger 540 01:32:21,600 --> 01:32:26,651 or being hungry. It was more like a real cry. 541 01:32:29,440 --> 01:32:34,730 It was heartwrenching. Sometimes I wanted to hit her because of it. 542 01:32:35,280 --> 01:32:41,890 And sometimes I was lost with tenderness. But always with myself in my way. 543 01:32:43,280 --> 01:32:50,413 A strange, strange, selfish fear. One shouldn't give oneself away. 544 01:33:02,160 --> 01:33:04,492 And the happiness faded. 545 01:33:09,680 --> 01:33:14,094 I remember the first time I heard mom cry. 546 01:33:14,480 --> 01:33:19,133 I was in the bedroom and heard mom and grandma talking. 547 01:33:19,560 --> 01:33:24,008 Grandma had such a low, strange voice, 548 01:33:24,520 --> 01:33:28,172 and suddenly mom screamed. I didn't know what it was about. 549 01:33:29,360 --> 01:33:34,047 I was terribly scared. Mostly because grandma's voice was so creepy. 550 01:33:34,960 --> 01:33:41,411 And I walked into the living room and saw mom sitting on a chair by the window 551 01:33:42,560 --> 01:33:47,771 and grandma stood in the middle of the room. When I came in, she turned to me 552 01:33:48,200 --> 01:33:55,288 and stared. It was grandma's face, yet it wasn't. 553 01:33:59,120 --> 01:34:05,252 She looked like an angry dog getting ready to bite. And I ran into the bedroom 554 01:34:05,680 --> 01:34:10,492 and prayed that grandma would get her old face back 555 01:34:10,880 --> 01:34:16,295 and that mom wouldn't cry. And it's so horrible when 556 01:34:17,840 --> 01:34:21,731 faces change so that you don't recognize them. 557 01:34:28,400 --> 01:34:30,254 I can't talk aboutthis. 558 01:34:45,040 --> 01:34:46,735 I don't want to. 559 01:34:51,760 --> 01:34:57,733 Give me a shot. I can't stand it anymore! 560 01:35:06,960 --> 01:35:08,575 I feel sick. 561 01:35:17,320 --> 01:35:20,016 I can't go on living with this. 562 01:35:36,320 --> 01:35:39,380 Relax now. 563 01:35:41,600 --> 01:35:45,775 You can't wear that dress today! That's your Sunday dress! 564 01:35:47,120 --> 01:35:50,374 You can't manage that. Let me help you. 565 01:35:53,000 --> 01:35:55,651 Eat what's on your plate. 566 01:35:56,240 --> 01:36:00,176 Painting your lips? That's not appropriate in this house. 567 01:36:01,800 --> 01:36:07,693 You're late again. Can you never learn to be in time? 568 01:36:08,080 --> 01:36:15,054 You're lazy and spoiled. If you don't behave, we'll send you to boarding school. 569 01:36:15,440 --> 01:36:18,853 There you'll learn to follow rules. 570 01:36:21,520 --> 01:36:26,048 You'll be learning from decent people. People who have tried to live their 571 01:36:26,480 --> 01:36:32,294 lives in order and cleanliness. If you intend to continue your life with 572 01:36:32,720 --> 01:36:36,895 me and grandpa, you must change your behaviour. 573 01:36:37,960 --> 01:36:42,090 You should be grateful! Can't you for once in your life show some gratitude? 574 01:36:47,120 --> 01:36:52,012 Don't hit me like that! Don't hit me in the face! 575 01:36:52,840 --> 01:36:57,573 I'll teach you to behave like people. Stop your crying. 576 01:36:58,000 --> 01:37:00,730 I don't like those tears. 577 01:37:01,160 --> 01:37:05,415 I do as I please! You can't control me! 578 01:37:06,000 --> 01:37:10,414 I hate you, you fucking witch! 579 01:37:19,880 --> 01:37:23,134 I think it's best that you're in command. 580 01:37:25,320 --> 01:37:30,166 I know that you love me and think you want my best. 581 01:37:30,640 --> 01:37:33,768 I know that I must do as you say. 582 01:37:38,960 --> 01:37:43,533 Why must I always have a guilty conscience? 583 01:37:55,120 --> 01:38:01,616 I'll ask for your forgiveness. Forgive me. 584 01:38:03,280 --> 01:38:07,216 I know that I've done wrong. I'm always wrong. 585 01:38:21,920 --> 01:38:27,688 Grandma's little girl. 586 01:38:29,920 --> 01:38:33,287 We can talk about everything. 587 01:38:33,840 --> 01:38:37,776 Everything is safe and sound with grandma. 588 01:39:01,520 --> 01:39:05,536 I'll die if I must sit in the closet. 589 01:39:14,880 --> 01:39:19,613 I'll do whatever you want if I don't have to sit in the closet. 590 01:39:21,320 --> 01:39:24,414 Please, grandma, please. 591 01:39:26,240 --> 01:39:31,007 I ask you for forgiveness. I can't live if I must sit in the closet. 592 01:40:25,040 --> 01:40:32,572 How can you lock a child who's afraid of the dark in a closet? 593 01:40:34,320 --> 01:40:37,892 - lsn't it surprising? - Yes, it is. 594 01:40:52,000 --> 01:40:56,812 Do you think I'm emotionally crippled for life? 595 01:40:58,920 --> 01:41:02,333 Do you think we're a one million army of emotionally crippled people, 596 01:41:02,800 --> 01:41:07,772 wretches who wander around, shouting to each others 597 01:41:08,200 --> 01:41:13,251 with words we don't understand and that make us even more scared? 598 01:41:14,800 --> 01:41:16,973 I don't know. 599 01:41:20,560 --> 01:41:24,417 - There is an invocation for us who don't believe. - What do you mean? 600 01:41:25,440 --> 01:41:29,774 - Sometimes I say it to myself quietly. - Can you tell it to me? 601 01:41:34,280 --> 01:41:37,852 I wish that someone or something will strike me, 602 01:41:38,160 --> 01:41:40,572 so I can become real. 603 01:41:41,320 --> 01:41:45,689 I repeat over and over, may I some day be real. 604 01:41:47,720 --> 01:41:50,006 What do you mean by "real"? 605 01:41:53,360 --> 01:41:59,970 To hear a human voice and trust that it comes from a human who is made like me... 606 01:42:02,280 --> 01:42:09,288 to touch a pair of lips and at the same time know that it is a pair of lips. 607 01:42:14,800 --> 01:42:17,610 - Sorry to disturb you... - It's the middle of the night. 608 01:42:17,920 --> 01:42:21,048 - The middle of the night? - My clock shows 04:05. 609 01:42:21,640 --> 01:42:24,006 In the infirmary, it's 08:05. 610 01:42:24,880 --> 01:42:27,212 - But it's Tuesday? - That's right. 611 01:42:28,360 --> 01:42:32,888 Dr. Isaksson's daughter is out there. She wants to see her mother. 612 01:42:34,320 --> 01:42:39,656 I want to talk to her, but not here. Could we sit in the visitor's room? 613 01:42:40,240 --> 01:42:45,291 Of course. Some old major's wife has been making herself at home there, but she's gone for a walk. 614 01:42:45,840 --> 01:42:47,774 I must clean up a little. 615 01:42:50,320 --> 01:42:53,380 I think we can send Mrs. Isaksson home today, if she wants to. 616 01:42:53,680 --> 01:42:57,776 - Shouldn't we contact Dr. Wankel? - Not necessary. 617 01:43:02,400 --> 01:43:08,817 Maybe you'd like a breakfast tray in the waiting room? Your daughter might want a cup of coffee. 618 01:43:09,640 --> 01:43:11,050 Thank you. 619 01:43:22,640 --> 01:43:24,255 Will I see you? 620 01:43:24,560 --> 01:43:27,131 That would be nice. But it might take some time. 621 01:43:27,440 --> 01:43:30,170 - Why is that? - I'm going to Jamaica. 622 01:43:30,800 --> 01:43:34,566 - You didn't say a word. - I forgot to tell you. 623 01:43:35,560 --> 01:43:40,771 - I'll have to take care of myself... - I'm the one who will take care of myself. 624 01:43:43,240 --> 01:43:45,606 I might come with you. 625 01:43:46,600 --> 01:43:50,331 - No thanks. - What will you do in Jamaica? 626 01:43:51,120 --> 01:43:54,647 I've heard that you can live amorally in Jamaica. 627 01:43:57,600 --> 01:44:01,616 - Will you come back? - I can't promise you that. 628 01:44:06,240 --> 01:44:08,970 - Goodbye. - Goodbye. 629 01:44:11,440 --> 01:44:13,294 Take care of yourself... 630 01:44:14,320 --> 01:44:17,130 and the people who like you. 631 01:44:36,320 --> 01:44:37,446 Hi, mom. 632 01:44:44,480 --> 01:44:48,132 Dad called and said you were ill, so I thought I'd come and visit you 633 01:44:48,480 --> 01:44:52,576 - though he said I shouldn't. - Did he say why I'm here? 634 01:44:53,120 --> 01:44:57,136 He said that you were ill and taken to the hospital by ambulance. 635 01:44:57,680 --> 01:44:59,807 - Not the reason? - No. 636 01:45:02,480 --> 01:45:04,334 - Here you are. - Thank you. 637 01:45:04,640 --> 01:45:08,007 - Should I close the door? - Yes. Let's sit down. 638 01:45:09,160 --> 01:45:11,526 - Would you like some? - No. 639 01:45:12,680 --> 01:45:14,011 No thanks. 640 01:45:17,440 --> 01:45:23,686 This won't be easy... Not for you nor for me. 641 01:45:30,640 --> 01:45:33,450 I did something very stupid. 642 01:45:40,320 --> 01:45:42,652 I tried to kill myself. 643 01:45:49,760 --> 01:45:52,172 It's difficult to explain. 644 01:45:54,800 --> 01:46:00,329 You might get the idea that I don't like you, or dad. 645 01:46:02,280 --> 01:46:04,168 But you mustn't. 646 01:46:08,160 --> 01:46:11,049 I like you most of all people. 647 01:46:12,240 --> 01:46:15,528 You and grandma. And dad. 648 01:46:24,240 --> 01:46:27,846 Have you never done anything suddenly 649 01:46:28,400 --> 01:46:32,166 - without knowing why? - I guess. 650 01:46:37,200 --> 01:46:40,966 - You must try to forgive me. - I don't understand. 651 01:46:54,960 --> 01:46:58,691 - Are you going back to the riding camp? - The train leaves in an hour. 652 01:46:59,920 --> 01:47:03,048 - Do you have money? - Yes. 653 01:47:03,520 --> 01:47:06,250 - Are you having a good time? - Kind of. 654 01:47:06,760 --> 01:47:08,967 Say hello to Lena and Karin. 655 01:47:12,040 --> 01:47:15,692 - Are you coming home on Friday? - Yes. 656 01:47:19,680 --> 01:47:22,535 Couldn't we have dinner together? 657 01:47:24,240 --> 01:47:28,609 You pass by here on the way to Sk�ne. You come in to town 658 01:47:28,960 --> 01:47:33,454 and then the train doesn't leave until ten. 659 01:47:34,320 --> 01:47:39,610 We could have dinner and go to the movies. Wouldn't that be nice? 660 01:47:42,760 --> 01:47:44,170 Mom... 661 01:47:45,800 --> 01:47:47,529 Will you do this again? 662 01:47:48,800 --> 01:47:52,088 - No. - How do I know? 663 01:47:53,520 --> 01:47:56,967 - You'll have to trust what I say. - But do you know what you're saying? 664 01:47:58,280 --> 01:48:02,216 - Yes. I think so. - But you're not sure? 665 01:48:05,200 --> 01:48:10,888 What do you really want? Don't you understand anything? 666 01:48:15,240 --> 01:48:17,049 You never liked me anyway. 667 01:48:23,760 --> 01:48:25,296 And that's true. 668 01:48:27,040 --> 01:48:28,655 I have to go now. 669 01:48:32,840 --> 01:48:35,650 Don't worry. I can take care of myself. 670 01:49:08,840 --> 01:49:12,253 - Are you feeling better? - Much better. 671 01:49:13,680 --> 01:49:17,616 - Why didn't you say anything? - There was nothing to say. 672 01:49:19,840 --> 01:49:26,689 I asked Dr. Jacobi and he said that you were stressed out. 673 01:49:27,120 --> 01:49:30,647 - Yes. - And Eric who rushed home. 674 01:49:31,120 --> 01:49:34,248 - But he went back just as fast. - Yes, of course. 675 01:49:34,800 --> 01:49:38,008 When he understood that it wasn't dangerous. 676 01:49:39,240 --> 01:49:41,606 That you were just stressed out. 677 01:49:44,680 --> 01:49:47,649 You're tired. Shall I make the bed 678 01:49:47,920 --> 01:49:50,696 - so that you can rest? - No thanks. 679 01:49:51,240 --> 01:49:54,892 But if you're stressed out you should go away for a while. 680 01:49:55,360 --> 01:50:00,571 It's impossible now. Erneman isn't coming home for two months. 681 01:50:01,520 --> 01:50:04,580 Then Eric and I might go on vacation. 682 01:50:15,840 --> 01:50:19,173 How are you, grandma? 683 01:50:21,960 --> 01:50:24,451 In some way... 684 01:50:25,160 --> 01:50:29,096 I sense that grandpa won't be walking again. 685 01:50:36,960 --> 01:50:38,973 That's the way it is. 686 01:50:41,920 --> 01:50:46,050 We have waited for this for several years. 687 01:50:52,200 --> 01:50:54,896 Yet it feels strange... 688 01:50:56,360 --> 01:50:58,408 when it finally happens. 689 01:51:02,720 --> 01:51:04,927 That's the way it is... 690 01:51:13,520 --> 01:51:15,169 I'll go in to see him now. 691 01:51:39,120 --> 01:51:42,408 I stood at the door for a long time... 692 01:51:42,960 --> 01:51:47,169 looking at the old couple and their connection... 693 01:51:50,440 --> 01:51:57,448 I saw their slow movements towards the secretive and horiffic point where they must part. 694 01:52:03,560 --> 01:52:07,849 I saw their dignity. Their humility. 695 01:52:11,760 --> 01:52:17,380 For a short moment I realised that love surrounds everything. 696 01:52:19,840 --> 01:52:21,569 Even death. 697 01:53:07,880 --> 01:53:11,372 Give me infirmary 11, sister Gunnel. 698 01:53:15,280 --> 01:53:17,931 Good day, it's Dr. Isaksson. 699 01:53:19,600 --> 01:53:23,013 Yes, thank you. Tell Dr. Wankel that I'll be in 700 01:53:23,400 --> 01:53:26,096 at 7:30 tomorrow as usual. 701 01:53:27,600 --> 01:53:29,295 Thank you.